[For the moment, Essek is distracting himself from the broken feeling he also feels. From the way he wants more and knows he cannot have it, how everything that happened feels like stolen sin because it wasn't just thumos and healing for Essek, it was so much more. So much more than he's allowed to have.
Than he deserves to have.
But he was a selfish man and took it in spite of himself, in spite of the trust Caleb put into him that it was just for Thumos..]
Then let us retire from this place.
[While he can hear Caleb put on his clothing, he distracts himself from looking by checking his device for how much Thumos he has and is stunned by the results. Was intimacy always like this or was it because he did such an act with a man he cared for so deeply..
Tucking the device away, he can feel his heart beating out of his chest, worried that Caleb will notice the difference in thumos gained because of that. But for the moment he says nothing.]
no subject
Than he deserves to have.
But he was a selfish man and took it in spite of himself, in spite of the trust Caleb put into him that it was just for Thumos..]
Then let us retire from this place.
[While he can hear Caleb put on his clothing, he distracts himself from looking by checking his device for how much Thumos he has and is stunned by the results. Was intimacy always like this or was it because he did such an act with a man he cared for so deeply..
Tucking the device away, he can feel his heart beating out of his chest, worried that Caleb will notice the difference in thumos gained because of that. But for the moment he says nothing.]
Shall we?